Actually... I Am Running. Pt 2

In my last post, I talked about how my leaving for a new destination really is me running away. I touched on a lot of different things, and felt it would be a good idea to continue with this subject a bit, because it’s multi-faceted and really, quite deep.

I talked about how I’m running away from myself, because I’m not a huge fan of who I am when I become too comfortable somewhere, but it’s not just that I don’t like who I am when I become too comfortable, it’s that I really, really love who I am when I’m traveling.

Contrary to Comfortable Me, Me Out In the Unknown is a person I really dig and love embracing/expressing.

Meeting new people, getting to know new cultures, and exploring new places are like all the best drugs put together in one for me. Being on the road, constantly interacting with people I don’t know, and feeling overcome by wonder awaken my spirit and bring out the me I want to be – friendly, patient, accepting, relatively-free of expectations, and totally open from the soulside-out. There is no other thing in the world that makes me feel so alive, so invigorated, so, so…right!

So why wouldn’t I run away from the controlling, critical, irritable me, so I can just live in a way that feels natural and be the happy, loving, wide-eyed child I am when I’m traveling, and really, the me I believe/know myself to actually be?

{{ Because we have to face our demons, and we have to learn to be content/our best selves when no one is even looking. Much easier said than done. And trust me, I know how hard it is. I’ve been living in my parents’ house for the last six months. And if you’re anything like me, shining brightest at home is always, always, always hardest. What can I say? I’ve always been a little self-destructive and made things harder than they need to be. }}

In a big way, I guess I could say I’m not just running away from one less-preferred version of myself, but I’m running towards the way of life I know will bring out the best me, and make me feel the most alive. I’m running towards my favorite me, my favorite flow. It’s like I’m taking a highlighter to the world, and focusing on living life only in those parts.

So you see, there’s so much more to the running away than just trying to escape. So, so much more. :)