The Biggest Reveal of My Life

In the last two months, I have felt very strongly that God has been revealing to me what He put me on this Earth to accomplish. (MEGA NEWS, by the way, for a perpetual questioner like myself! So hey, hey Hallelujah!)

During my yoga teacher training (YTT) and in the weeks after, I have been getting clear visuals and sensations that confirm something I've thought for a long time now:

I'm here to help people heal, be happy, and be healthy. The only difference now, is that I've gotten some clarity on exactly how I'm supposed to help them heal, and what my longer-term future looks like...

For the longest time when I would think about my future then close my eyes (a practice I developed as a way to give God a chance to show me what direction to head), I'd see myself hugging people. I usually saw myself squatting down next to someone in a dry, desert-like place that looked relatively stricken with poverty. I saw us looking into one another's eyes, seeing each other in ways you can only see when you look through the eyes and into the soul, and then I saw us embracing one another in a strong hug full of love and support. I believed I was meant to just travel the world hugging everyone I could. (So down!) And while I still feel this will play a large part in what I do in life and to help the world heal/feel and be a little bit brighter, there's now so much more! So much more, that could have only been revealed to me once I started really embracing and revealing myself... on the dance floor!

Now, I see myself encouraging people to dance! To move their bodies, to really inhabit them, feel them, move through them, to move with them, and to move for them. I'm here to get people really going! To teach and share yoga, break down their build-ups by working it out through massage, educate them on the benefits of eating clean and spending time with nature, but more than anything else, get them dancing! I'll work with things like Ecstatic dance and the 5Rhythms (thank you, Gabrielle Roth, for your existence), and incorporate it into my asana (yoga poses) classes, too. I want to make people move and groove in ways they never have before, and create space for them to explore themselves. My life is going to be dedicated to Honest Expression!

I believe so strongly in the body's ability to heal itself, and our ability to encourage healing within ourselves. Emotional and mental health are key to physical health, and I have felt and experienced the way breathing through your body and its movements can affect your entire life. I've experienced countless times what good therapy dance is, and know people can work through emotional and physical trauma by fully inhabiting their bodies and moving and grooving as they feel called. The power of healing that is held in movement is remarkable, and I am here to share it with others, and encourage them through their journeys.

In the future, I'll have my own space. It will be quite large, because there will be many different aspects to it. I'll have a restaurant that offers totally organic eats and non-alcoholic drinks (except kombucha, haha), and in it there will also be a little health food/supplement shop (might get a tea-ny bit crazy, if you catch my drift;). My most recent vision showed me there will be a huge area that is all floor seating, lots of cushions and tiny tables, where people can kick back, relax, enjoy something to drink, and just hang out. Singing bowls and hand drums will abound, plus other random this's and that's! I'll have all my books on the wall so people can read them, and even set it up with/like a little library. (^_^) I probably won't offer WiFi, but there will be plenty of coloring books and chalk boards to doodle on!

And of course, there will also be a yoga and dance studio/meditation room! Maybe even a "learning center"! Maybe yoga teacher training courses will be offered someday! Heck, maybe the whole place will be in some epic destination and serve as a retreat center! But one thing is for sure, I'll offer alignments courses, preferably for free, so everyone can come and learn how to practice the poses properly! We'll have yoga, dance, and meditation classes, and hopefully high ceilings, so we can have some time for people to come in and play with their flow toys! (Plus aerial silks? Yes. Always.)

For a while now I've wanted to have a bed and breakfast or a breakfast/lunch spot, and this just seems like such a beautiful way to fuse everything together! When God started showing me these visions, I couldn't help but get excited! I know it's not for the immediate future, but knowing what I'm working towards in the future feels so good, and definitely helps me with the choices I have to make now. Knowing what I want to do later enables me to consider it now, and it's a great relief to finally have some clear direction!

When I first started writing this post, I was going to call it, "Am I to Take This As a Sign?" Because I was feeling a little discouraged that I'd finally started to see more fully developed visions about my future, most of which are focused on movement, and then I take my fall, bust open my ankle, and wind up on crutches for two weeks. I wasn't sure if this was God's way of telling me, "No, those visions weren't from me, and that's not what I want you to do," but after my mini morning practice today, I'm getting a different idea...

This morning was the first time in over two weeks that I've gotten into Balasana (child's pose), Adho Mukha Svanasana (downward facing dog), done any Surya Namaskar (sun salutation) and had myself a little flow! IT FELT AMAZING! And honestly, I now think this injury was never meant to keep me from my practice, but to help me go deeper into it. Because what a better way to pursue the practice than by having to be hyper-aware of your body via injury?

There are few things other than serious trauma to your physical form that can get you to move with more intention and be more connected to your breath. So in reality, I'm grateful for this injury! I've been a little scared to move too much till now, because I'm still waiting for the opening to close, but after this morning and the last, I know so much more about my body and what it's capable of doing. So instead of taking this as a sign I'm supposed to stop, I'm taking it as a sign I'm on the right track, and a reminder that I still have A LOT to learn. About myself, about the practice, about movement, and about healing.

I can't wait to keep honoring this, and encouraging others to do the same! :)

Sending epic amounts of blessings, love, light & wonder to you all! I hope you're having a good time here on Earth, you're getting in touch with your bodies, and you're figuring out how to let what's inside of you best come out and be expressed. Let your life be an Honest Expression, and inspire others to be the same!